Angels And Angles

baby i dont want to lose you…

i hate what i am..

i dont want this to continue..

i want love back..

i want to change for the better..

i am a stupidest jerk for ignoring and not making an effort for seeing you..

and im sorry for taking you for granted.

i know what i have done wrong.

and my friends even scolded me for that.

even hana said “i was a gentleman.. what happened?”

ive lost it.

i dont want

i dont want.

please baby i regret for being this way.

i want to make an effort.

i want to make a change.

but first give me a chance.

yeah peopel i just broke up. and im finding things that are on the brighter side of it. like my birthday party was a blast. a halal and sober party where me/ didi/ adam got to break even with the money that we sponsored. after that when i woke up in the morning after my birthday barbecue i saw a huge card on my table.. it’s from my lil sister. sweetness

it’s a sunday and i got bored. so what else to do then analyze movies.

i started with Smart People directed by Noam Murro and then RocknRolla by Guy Ritchie and ended the day with a personal favorite Clerks II by Kevin “Silent Bob” Smith.

i would to say Smart People is a too intellectual movie to understand the dialogue. but having a family movie being a total opposite to Little Miss Sunshine. Dennis Quaid, Sarah Jessica Parker and Ellen Page are not at their 100% in this movie. being a fan of Ellen Page, is disappointing to see her doing this sort of role and not being like her character in Juno or Hard Candy.

and after that i switch to RocknRolla. a Guy Ritchie come back after the down fall of the horrid Swept Away with Madonna. i love the cinematography especially during the druggies and the sex scene which was just facial expression of Gerard Butler and Thandie Newton. and i was happy seeing that Ludacris and Jeremy Piven making an entry in this English Film.

and i ended the day with Clerks II. love love the movie and dialogue was tone down a level for me after watching Smart People. Even with out watching Clerks I i could understand the story line and the jokes they gives us. i love the Transformers/Lord of the Rings vs Star Wars debate which i found it funny that a guy would actually puke at a debate like this. i love Jeff Anderson’s character Randall in this movie. even thought he’s stupid, he is still act smart and as well intelligent in his certain ways.

would you be the same,

if i were to change my name,

would feel in pain,

if i was to leave again.

would you cut me up,

if i were to hurt you again.

my life the same issue the pain of pain.

the worlds collide with every drop of rain.

I’m sure you have include the fact that i am derange.

the heart attacks it got me back when you inside my screen.

voices i hear is torn and tears with every scene i seen

the more i give the more i’ve lost the more i suck you out.

the end is long and the last of songs is ripped & wrong & hate

listening to four year strong and waiting for my work to finish rendering. and just to put a freaking logo there. and to make things even better. youtube is not running properly as well as they don’t allow official music video anymore cause of copyrighted material..*sigh* there was a time when videos run free in youtube. it’s paradise for them.and look what happen to the them. i have to go to fbrplus.com to check out GCH, TAI, , Cobra, the Cab and even FOB to see their music vids. but not all the vids are there example FOB’s hits and GCh’s hits..

come on youtube i need my video back ;(

work is a 4 letter word you need to do but try to run away from it. and work that brings food to the table but spent on gas to work. and work a beautiful thing when your married to your work until your married yourself. and the worst part is when your doing work and the day just about to end, you accidentally deleted it due to the mouse sensor being too sensitive.

i experience the last one yesterday. i was caught up by the fact that im about yo go home and being so naive and pressing Apple Q for a shortcut exit and the window screen says save dont save or cancel. =_=” and the best part is the boss said that ” ala so sad for you. why don’t you try again tomorrow” T_____T

i’m sorry  people. i forgot that i have a blog.

updates in life are

Doing well in college(being a student leader is a lot of hassle)

the New girl in my life Nurul Syaqinah Binti Abdul Rahim( very much in love)

the band is not doing great at all( haven’t jam for sometime/ rizal problems)

and overall a different side of me emerge when i met the girl of my dreams

updates you soon peeps

i miss my friends

and i miss you

yeah the only who understands is ash

thanks for having you around =)

any one want to borrow?

Taxi driver

Blade Runner

Full Metal Jacket

the Graduate

Schindler’s List

Rebel without a Cause

Casalanca

Citizen Kane

Sophie’s Choice

Eyes Wide Shut

and the list goes on(old ones la of course)

maybe rent it..MUAHAHAHA